Dear Childhood Best Friend,
I write this as I’m listening to “Into Deep” by Sum 41, the song we made a dance to and next thing we knew the whole school was doing that very same dance. But if I ever did that dance now, the only one who knows the story behind it is me. Because you’re not there anymore.
The young, innocent, naive days were what we shared. You were my sister (since I only had brothers). I remember the endless days I spent at your house. How odd we were for playing with snails and fish, tying teddy bears to plastic bags to make “parachutes”. Asking to speak to you on the landline when your parents or brother answered the phone. When I got my first cellphone (a hand-me-down flip phone), we were so amazed because it meant freedom. With me moving constantly, your house is the one I know as my childhood home.
We told each other that we would be there for every life event in each other’s life. High school, university, weddings, even our funerals. You were to be the maid of honour at my wedding and the godparent of my children. We were to be two old ladies who would talk about “the good ol’ days”, how we literally grew old with each other. But now that future’s gone. And it makes me sad but I know that you won’t be by my side like we’ve planned since we were 6 years old.
But the truth is, we never knew that this would happen–it just did. High school came around and we grew apart. Different crowds, different interests, different lives. We had a fantastic childhood and that was it. Spending every day together turned into once a week, a month, then only exchanges of “hi” in the hallways. That’s the way life works: friends grow apart even if they don’t realize it.
The only thing I could say to you right now is thank you. Thank you for teaching me how to be a good friend (and for showing me Mamma Mia). As cheesy as it sounds, you taught me what a true friendship is. It’s not about being better than the other, but being great together. To support one another and be that second set of eyes to get a good perspective. I wish we were still friends but I know it wouldn’t be the same. What we had is our childhood, and I think that is the perfect time to have a friendship as great as ours.
I wish you all the best in life.
Your Childhood Best Friend
P.S. Listen to Into Deep and other nostalgic songs when you’re down. It can bring back some great memories.